“What do you want to be when you’re older?”
I hate the question. I associate it with gritting teeth, family events, teachers, parents, doctors, or any adult I seem to have crossed in the past 4 years. There is this stigma among adults that right as you walk through the doors of high school for the first time, you are to know exactly what you want to do for the rest of your life. I am here today, as a grade 12 who somehow made it out alive of the university application process, to say why wait? Why the question of “when your older”, why not a question of right now?All of my life people have looked to me saying, “you seem to have everything all figured out”.
News flash; I don’t, no one does.
I know that rain droplets ker-plunking down the window of my car’s backseat can calm me down any day. I know that I love how odd, loud, and fashionable I am. I know that it may have seemed impossible to have become a model, blogger, and social media manager by 17. I know I love my friends and get a loss of energy and confidence when I do not see them for a week. I know that I do not want to be defined by my social media, I’d rather be known for the way I snort while laughing in a way that is less cute than expected. I know I will have an amazing future, that will lead me to the unexpected, where ever that may be. I know I am afraid of being financially independent, choosing a career path, and of not being good enough. Yet I know I will make mistakes, I will be knocked down and will have to pick myself up. I know I will struggle and question if anything is worth it. But the truth is, I have only been on this planet for 17.75 years, and there is a lot I do not know.
I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, or what troubles may come my way. Most importantly, I don’t know what the world has in store for my life and I cannot wait to find out. I know my worth, strengths, and who I am. What will make me happy for the rest of my life?! Being me. As time goes by, priorities may change, people may change, yet despite the money, jobs, and lifestyle all I aspire to be is happy. I want to love my life. So why wait until you’re older to be what you want? Why not start now?
I wanted to dedicate this post to my fellow grade 12’s who are questioning everything around them for university applications. I want to let you all know that it is okay to not know exactly what you want to be. We are taught all throughout our education that it is key to always get the right answer no matter what. In the real world, it is okay to get the wrong answer, because there is no right one. There is no option a,b,c or d when every challenge comes your way. Much like the water droplets sliding from one to the other with a little help from each other, you will find yourself going with the flow and ending in success. As long as you never lose track of what is most important to you. Every journey is different, it’s what you make it that’s all the enjoyment.
So take a deep breath, you can do this!